Ok time to blog again. Im having a tough time with life and some problems now. On the 3rd of may, i went for a 5 day course to upgrade myself on service industry sponsored by e2i. Tmr ill be going for an interview again. Hopefully with the cert i gained, i can get a job. If not, im nt sure what to do. giodarno called me up after such a fucking long time to ask me to work part time at exposales at the end of this mth. If i didnt get a job tmr, i guess ill just have to go for it so tht there'll be some income for myself.

I wanna talk but easy money. I dont believe tht money will come so easy just like tht but from what i have heard and saw with my own eyes, this thing can really be true but idk why inside me, i still dont believe. Maybe its just tht i believe that with hard work den we'll get paid. Gonna look more into it. And btw, i have a new close fren now, man. Nice to have a fren to talk with. Dont get me wrong ehk...

Next, can someone teach me how to trust ppl, be and act like a real girl who knows how to talk softly, nt to be rough, knows how to pujok and stuffs? Omg im having probs with that. Seriously. I myself think i dont act like a girl. Currently facing with some probs. Its been weeks i guess i didnt talk normally with my mum. We'll talk if theres a need only, i can count how many words i spoke to her! I used to tell her if theres any interview or any new things i learned or found out, tell her tht im gg out, but now no more. Ok la freedom. Its just tht i talk more with bf more thn mama. haha.

Bf? Hmmmmmm..... *shake head* Donoe what to blog abt him. No freedom to blog abt him also. Its been gg to 11 mths we've known each other n i guess i knew him inside out. His attitudes, the usuals that he'll do or act or react. Da kenal sgt. What i realised love, (im sure u realised this too) we both have diff personalites, diff characters and the most impt one, diff mindset. I find it hard to...... u know what im trying to say? Im the rough one while u a lil introvert, need face and stuffs. Is this bad or something good? Im unsure. Opp attracts? Tk tau b! haha. Stress tau otak aku piker2. Tah ape yg aku piker pon tk tau.

In a relationship, if thers no fights no downs, i know tht wont a normal relationship. It need fight to mae us closer but is all this normal? I seriously dont have tha ans. Is it you or is it just me? I really need to meet with someone who is good with all this, listen to his/her advise/opinions so that ill have a clearer vision of what is going on now.

Aite, i'll stop here for now.