- Tuesday, September 28, 2010
- 4:46 PM


After quite some time tgt, i realised we have difficulty talking things out. I find it difficult to say what i actually wanted to say cos somehow i feel tht you dont understand me. For example, you did smtg wrg, i wasnt able to get my msg across cos u keep on saying sorry and wants me to forget it at tht point of time jgk. I feel so not nice when i have to force myself to forget it and, even if my mouth said ok but my heart's will still be not happy. It will still rmbr until i do smtg bout it. Thn, it's satisfied Get what i mean?
Everytime, when we talk things out, say all the unhappy things tht we have in our mind, i realised, u'll not be happy with what i say. When i ask you to say 1st u said notg. When i shoot everytg baru u nk ckp ni nk ckp tu. Dont you find it funny? I tot when it comes to talking session, everything shud be let out lagi2 after quite some time being tgt. But you? You always say, anything unhappy, just tell. But when it comes to you? Da kene shoot baru nk ckp. And you'll start saying " i just keep quiet only..blablabla~~~ You said, anything unhappy, ckp but you yourself didnt prac tht.
And when u did smtg wrg, u even got the cheek to say about me. Tell me, how am i suppose to love u so much when u hurt me? You even dare to say my love for u is always ups n downs. Girls wont do tht if notg's wrg. Last time maybe, bcos we gt tgt quite fast and i stil havent trust you. Now im slowly trying my best to start a fresh new life with u. Im nt trying to say im good. Its just tht whenever we have problems, honestly i find it diff to talk things out with you. You n your world.


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- 2:31 AM





Sesungguhnye da lame gile tk update ni blog btl2. Its dead for awhile. Its been months. Many, i really mean MANY things happened in these few months. Ok, first and foremost, i started working back at call centre. Pay quite good but management and working hours suck. Im still finding for a new job with better working hours. Working rotating shift is nt good.


I am proud to say this. I guess i have my freedom now. After years of suffering, dpt jgk freedom BUT of cos i cant misuse it. But im sure i wont misuse it la. Wanna lie also for what ryte? Like no use like dat. I'll use it wisely instead. :) todays post will be a long one, confirm! 1 para, 1 story. heh.

Ok. freedom da ckp, work da ckp. Lets talk bout hari raya, Hari raya is where all fam members gt tgt ryte? Catch things up. eat, enjoy, laugh tgt and lastly, bermaaf2an ryte? Guess what? My fam is incomplete this yr. W/o 4th. Every yr, we'll gather at nenek's hs, but when the rest of my fam is about to leave from the house, 4th and his wife arrive. How fuck up can tht be. And he's like treating all of us like strangers. Oh my god ehk. Haiz. hari raya kene keje on the 1st day. I gt to wear baju kurong twice je k. No gg out with frens this yr. Rindu la pakai baju kurong. haha. My mum and me nw are getting closer n closer. Baru cam mak ngn anak. But i dont like it when her angin comes. Mcm shit ehk. haha. Mama mama ... haha.

Now, love. Love went ns 1 day b4 our 1st yr anni. Sending him off was easy. No tears at all. Time balek...fuhh!!! heavy rain. haha, But tht only lasted for 3 days only then better.On our 14th mthsary, hell be having a fast march comp. All the best dear. And on my birthday, die POP la kan.. Support die. Bwk banner sume. Cheh. haha! Just had a tiff with bf these few days over smtg. Just wanna say love me sincerely k. Dont do it anymore, No more next time rdy aite. I'll forgive you this time. kakak baik k. Come on~~~ hahaha!


Within this period, i went to watch vogue perform at tanteric pub. It was a bday celebration.
Tranny. Im the only straight girl there. I saw all kinds of senget ppl. But its good to mix around with them, atleast u know other ppl's world also. What one of them told me is true, when u grow up, if u were to have a son or grandson like them, u know what to do. After all, they r human beings too. :)

Lastly, i have a new love name Mike. :) MY LAPPY! I sold my old comp and bought a new samsung lappy. Worth the price, What i like the most abt mike is its scratch-free! :)))) And im using it right now. :)
Ok, thts all for now, will blog again soon.

Btw, one last note, jadi pmpn jgn jadi poster sgt k. Sape2 yg ade bodek mesti kau okgo ehk. Tk bgs prgi cm tu. Nk frenly tu frenly, tapi agak2 siket k.


Family aku multi racial this yr raye. haha!





Signing off
Shafinaz :)








- Saturday, September 4, 2010
- 12:52 AM


Today, i blog just for the sake of blogging! Cb! Comp no moreeeeee!! But lappy will be coming soon. ;)


~ SHAFINAZ ~

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a laughing gas
Has deep passion for dance. Wanna experience more on malay n hiphop dance. Or maybe if there's a chance, contemporary dance will be nice. hehe.
Serious interest on make ups
A girl who is different. Trust me

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WISHES
To get a new GOOD phone
Itouch or maybe a simple MP3
To hit 50 kg the least
Love's the last one
To be a MAK ANDAM
Own my own bridal shop, insyaallah
Lastly, to have total freedom.
INSYAALLAH ...

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VOGUELICIOUS
They are someone whom i look up to when it comes to dancing
Luke, Fadhlie,Sri, Izzy

Try not to bitch too much k. haha. :)

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